Ruka Terasaki (![[personal profile]](https://www.dreamwidth.org/img/silk/identity/user.png)
voicesofspirits) wrote2012-10-09 07:36 pm
voicesofspirits) wrote2012-10-09 07:36 pm
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*"Maybe it was all a dream? Maybe I'll wake up and everything will be normal again."
Ruka's eyes slowly flickered open to be greeted by unfamiliar surroundings. She slowly sat up and looked around the room she was in. Where was she? Who brought her here? All she knew was that being there meant that no matter how much she wished, everything that has happened recently, had really happened.
She slowly got up from the bed, steadying herself from a short dizzy spell before moving towards the door. She listened by it for any noises, then slowly opened it.
The hallway it brought her into she did recognize. This was Juudai and Asuka's apartment. So Juudai must of brought her here? Quietly she walked down the hallway until she got to a slightly open door on her left. Looking through the small gap, she could see Juudai sat in the living room, working on his laptop. Ruka didn't want to disturb him. After all, she's probably caused him enough trouble already.
Slowly and quietly, Ruka opened the front door and snuck out of it. When outside, she was about to run across the courtyard to her apartment when a thought hit her. Did she really belong there anymore? Is that even her home now? She really wasn't sure... and holding herself up in it again wouldn't be a good idea anyway.
Ruka leaned against the wall beside the entrance to Juudai's apartment and slid down until she was sitting. Pulling her legs to her chest, she buried her face in them.
She had honestly never felt so lost and so ashamed of herself as she did at this moment.
Looks like she could use someone to talk to!.*
Ruka's eyes slowly flickered open to be greeted by unfamiliar surroundings. She slowly sat up and looked around the room she was in. Where was she? Who brought her here? All she knew was that being there meant that no matter how much she wished, everything that has happened recently, had really happened.
She slowly got up from the bed, steadying herself from a short dizzy spell before moving towards the door. She listened by it for any noises, then slowly opened it.
The hallway it brought her into she did recognize. This was Juudai and Asuka's apartment. So Juudai must of brought her here? Quietly she walked down the hallway until she got to a slightly open door on her left. Looking through the small gap, she could see Juudai sat in the living room, working on his laptop. Ruka didn't want to disturb him. After all, she's probably caused him enough trouble already.
Slowly and quietly, Ruka opened the front door and snuck out of it. When outside, she was about to run across the courtyard to her apartment when a thought hit her. Did she really belong there anymore? Is that even her home now? She really wasn't sure... and holding herself up in it again wouldn't be a good idea anyway.
Ruka leaned against the wall beside the entrance to Juudai's apartment and slid down until she was sitting. Pulling her legs to her chest, she buried her face in them.
She had honestly never felt so lost and so ashamed of herself as she did at this moment.
Looks like she could use someone to talk to!.*
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[Isabel doesn't waste any time approaching her, but when she does, she doesn't say anything immediately.]
"I heard what happened from Juudai..." [She pauses.] "How are you doing right now?"
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...terrible.
I don't know what to do... I feel so lost and confused. Like my world's collapsed in on itself and I have nowhere to go.
I'm sorry if I was a burden to anyone... I'm sorry I was weak.
*You can tell she's fighting back tears as she's saying this.*
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[Isabel sits down next to Ruka, pulling her knees up close and wrapping her arms around them.]
"You don't have anything to apologize for, you know." [She looks down at Ruka.] "If anything, I should be apologizing to you. My stupid mark was..." [She glares at the mark of the Tail on her arm.] "It was going off when I talked to you - I should've recognized something was wrong, but I didn't."
[Her arm drops down to her side and she just glares at the ground instead.] "I really hate this stupid Signer bullshit sometimes, I gotta be honest with you."
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You do...?
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"I guess 'hate' is pretty strong. But it really bugs me sometimes trying to figure out what the Crimson Dragon is trying to do - it's just..." [She shakes her head.] "There was no reason for it to separate you from your brother like that."
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Through everything, it never once told us exactly why we were sent here. I guess it bothered me more than it should of... but I started worrying that if it sent us here without telling us a reason, it could send us back without a reason, not giving us a choice or letting us say goodbye if we didn't have one...
I felt that as long as Rua was with me, I'd be happy where ever we were, because he was the one part of my family that mattered the most to me. Home was where he and I were together, but the fear and distrust I began getting in the Crimson Dragon didn't make me feel content with that. I felt scared that it could just do whatever it wanted with us, without our say.
...and I never told any of the others how I felt when I should of. I was scared of voicing my opinions. Not because I didn't think they'd believe me, but more because it would make those fears and opinions a reality. I didn't want to think ill of the Crimson Dragon, especially since Ancient Fairy is so loyal to it, but I was.
*Slowly, she lifts up the sleeve of her right arm, showing her mark.*
I started to get taunted by girls in my class at the academy because I was always covering it up. I didn't want people to know I had it... so they wouldn't ask questions... but they taunted me anyway, because it was obvious I had something to hide. I couldn't wear anything that didn't have long sleeves to cover it up. I started feeling like I couldn't be like other girls my age, so I just started withdrawing into my studies, which just made things worse.
It made me resent it more... feel like I was cursed... but then I felt bad because I felt I was being really self-centred...
*Ruka slowly pulled her sleeve back over the mark before burying her head in her arms.*
Then it proved my fears right. It took the others away somewhere without warning. It took Rua away from me, when I need him and left me here on my own...
*After pouring her heart out, Ruka falls silent, other than the obvious sound of her crying.*