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Well, I'm officially 19 today.
It's strange to think that in one more year I'll be completely out of my teens.

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*It's Ruka's 19th birthday and she had the day off work for it, so anyone can meet up with her in the park for birthday wishes and present giving!*

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*Ruka slowly nods.*

...the Crimson Dragon came to me a few months ago and I found out what really happened the night Rua, Yusei and the other's disappeared.
It did, indeed, take them back, but it didn't leave me behind like I thought... or at least not intentionally. It turned out that because I was so strongly split over going back with the others and wishing to stay here where I'd begun building a life, the Crimson Dragon's powers acctidently split me in two. The Ruka who wished to go and the Ruka who wished to stay.

But that caused an imbalance that the Crimson Dragon wanted me to fix. My only choices were to either re-join with the other Ruka, but forget the past few years... or stay and give up my status as a signer.
If I didn't make a choice, the imbalance would of not only wiped out me and the other Ruka, but also would of backlashed onto Shinoko.

*With that, she lifts the sleeve of her shirt up, to show her arm and the lack of a signer mark.*

I chose to stay, but it means I can probably never see Rua and the others again. That mark was my last connection to them.

[Isabel's hands start to shake as she hears the story. It's the same as what Yuma told her -- when she sees Ruka's arm and the lack of a mark, her eyes widen and her breath catches in her throat and she realizes that the reason she wanted to hear it from Ruka herself was because she was hoping it wasn't true.]

...

I thought maybe that Tsukumo kid had just heard wrong but...

[She gulps.] It's really gone.

*Ruka looks up with surprise, but her look softens a little afterwards.*

I guess Yuma told you about it.

Yeah. It's gone.

....in the forest.

[She looks down, ashamed.]

He told me.

I think I didn't want to believe it.

...there are some days where I don't want to believe it too.

...I should've been here.

[She takes a step towards Ruka and reaches out. If Ruka lets her, she'll take her hand in hers.]

I should've been here to help you with this when it happened and I wasn't.

...I'm sorry.

*Ruka allows Isabel to take her hand.*

No, it's... *She shakes her head.* ... please don't feel bad. You've had things you've needed to do, things you've had to deal with.

...I wasn't alone when it happened. I didn't have to go through it alone.

... [Isabel takes in and releases a shaky breath. But her outward expression doesn't change. It seems like she's putting a lot of effort into staying on an even keel.]

Juudai and the others were there for you, huh?

*Ruka nods.*

Juudai was there with me through the whole thing. Both he and my friends supported me afterwards. It was in no way easy but... it helped. It helped me to not to dwell to much on it and to just carry on moving forward a step at a time.

Somedays are harder than others, but knowing I have people who care for me here is helping me get through it.

[Isabel quietly swallows. She slowly remembers - she remembers right after Yusei and Rua were taken away from her, how Ruka reacted. To just try and shut herself off from everybody and not feel anything - how that had led to her being preyed on by one of the Numbers. Isabel remembers how powerless and angry she felt to be unable to help her at that time. How Ruka's reacting now couldn't be any further from what happened the last time.

Slowly, one of Isabel's hands comes up and if Ruka lets her, she lightly strokes her face and hair. There's something of a sad smile on Isabel's face.]

...you've grown up a lot, Ruka.

*She lets her stroke her face and hair. Once she hears Isabel's comment, she slowly looks up at her. A small sad, but grateful smile also appears on her face.*

Thank you. That means a lot to me.

Mmn. [Isabel stares at Ruka for a moment mmore - she considers grabbing hold of the girl and pulling her as close as she can, but in that moment, she knows that if she does, she's liable to never let go.

So, instead, she lets her hand drift back downwards to her side.]

...hey. It's...it's still your birthday, so...what do you say we go get some dinner or something?

*Ruka's smile grows a bit more cheerful as she hears Isabel suggest that.*

Sure. I'd really like that.

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